I wonder, as I write this blogpost with much vulnerability, if you have ever felt this way…
I want to tell You what I learned about You today. These things are true, what I’m about to say. Only, I want to know them in my heart, not merely in my head. When I read Matthew 11:28-29, two verses I memorized when I was a little girl, I understand them now. You said, Come unto me, all you who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your soul. I only wish I could’ve been in Israel with You, to have walked with You the way others did all those years ago. The Bible is all I have. I read it to know what You said about Yourself and what people said about You. Not that I feel it’s the consolation prize, this Holy Bible; absolutely not… it’s an amazing gift for which I am truly grateful. It’s just that, well, I wish You were here physically sitting across from me in that yellow chair. You would see these tears streaming down my face and You would hold out your hand. I know You would do that. Perhaps You’d stand and invite me to come near to You, and You’d put your strong arms around me. You might hold me the way a father holds his daughter when he’s trying to console her. You might not choose to change anything. And that’s okay, as it’s not about Your changing my circumstances, for I also remember what You said one other time; in this world we will have trouble. Matthew 11:28-29 came to life for me today. You came to life for me today. This is who You are to me right now, Jesus.
You are the most understanding person in the universe. You are gentle. You are humble. You give grace to the those who are humble. You are accessible at all times. You are the most approachable person in the universe. You provide rest for me. You are tender. You welcome me. You accommodate me. You are willing to talk to me. You are kind to me.
Thank You, Jesus.
Thank You for speaking to my heart today.